ClOSER - Finishing A painting

This is just a short clip where I talk a little bit about when a piece is closer to being finished.

To me, it's so intimate and personal to decide this part. I rely on feelings, yet I am still checking off my list of non non-negotiables I have for myself. Of course these are things that happen over time, you can’t rush the process, or plan it, or define it.

When staying open to mystery and magic in art and life there is the search that must happen. The journey one must take. Each of these are so individual and unique to us. Just like no two fingerprints are the same, neither are the marks we make, even if it is the “same” mark.

It’s never been made by YOU. It’s never been said by YOU. It’s never been EXPRESSED by YOU.

This is the importance of building practice into your life, not just in art, but in how you see, how you show up, who you decide to be, how you heal, how you dance, how you open into the being of all expressions.

This is the practice of art, and over time, we come to find who we truly are in the process.

Inspired By A SONG

I LOVE this SONG so MUCH - And recently It SAVED me -- and OPENED me -- I can't explain it - it was in the past few weeks where I just found it and put it on REPEAT and Cried and Cried and Cried.

As I was crying, I was organizing my past notes since 2017 — little things I had written to myself, and snippets of course and class ideas, long before the Artist returned. I was met with this overwhelming feeling and realization that I have been walking this path and building towards this moment.

Often times we can really lose ourselves in thinking that things are all in vain, and it is easy to lament and get distracted and get down on ourselves for not being somewhere we thought in our minds we should of been.

So within this moment of listening to this song and sobbing uncontrollably — the pieces were starting to form and something was releasing deep within me — I can’t explain how these moments happen, or how, or when, or who or why — But I am grateful that ART has the power to help us heal in all kinds of ways.

Music inspires my painting practice so much — of course, it helps me conjure memories and feeling states, as well as helps me move into different altered states of consciousness.

I have always tried to conjure and channel the feeling of Song and Music into a 2d surface, such as a painting. Music is very much Fluid and so is an abstract expressionist painting -- it has an energy and an emotionality -- I can interface with a painting and a surface and try to channel and transfer that into the expressions, I can bring all my emotion and channel that as an energy into the mark making material or brush and I can let go, wild, free, sometimes uncontrollably and sometimes gently — I can cry, laugh, scream, giggle, and let it all out onto the surface.

It is a lofty goal that I aspire to and maybe even a little crazy idea to make a painting sing like music, but I am a little bit crazy to connect in such a way where the desire and push and pull is always calling me forward. Of course that is not the only reason I paint or the only idea behind where I am trying to go with my expressions, but it is a pretty big one.

I love when you find a new song, in a hidden way and it opens you, and I feel like abstract art has the ability to create the same feeling and as an Artist that is what I am desiring to do — is to help you FEEL something, maybe you never FELT before, or you find yourself entering a hidden moment, and connecting deeply to the expression and the you the viewer has an experience that maybe can just for a little while take away your pain, help you remember who you are, and give you that giddy feeling of what it is to be in LOVE with LIFE.

How To Access Intuition, Energy & Emotion In Drawing And Mark Making

In this video I talk about how to access intuition, energy and emotion in drawing and mark making. I talk about what intuitive and intuition mean for me and explain how I see it. I also mention this video here where I share a little bit about my spiritual/energetic and shamanic practice and how that enhances and helps me achieve more intuition. Click here to view the video:    • Showing Up And Sharing More Sides  : ...  

Let me know how you are feeling in the comments below and/or what you would like to hear about and see.

A Love Letter To Sensitive Souls

A Love Letter To Sensitive Souls

This is my love letter to the sensitive souls
The ones who wear their hearts on their sleeves and pull down stars to give others the light.
FREELY - FIERCELY - UNCONDITIONALLY SENSITIVE SOULS, I see you.

The ones who shy away from the spotlight. Who want so badly to come out of hiding and claim your brilliant gifts.
The one who dances wildly with creations dreaming, sensing, feeling so deeply.
I know what it's like to hide away, to mask the pain, to love to much, to get lost in a sea of creativity -- I know that you FEEL everything so intensely, often shutting down at times and you often simply have to pretend you are just like everyone else.

SENSITIVE SOULS, I see you. And you are NOT like everyone else.
You are: The ones who remember their star origins. The ones who dream technicolor dreams. Who speak in poetry and believe in magic and mystery. Who create from there HEART -- Who came here to take on the pain, so you could turn it into medicine.

SENSITIVE SOULS, I see you.
The ones who would give it all away so someone else could feel safe.
Often forgetting your own safety and losing yourselves in the process.
The ones who stand up for truths that are often disguised and propagated as lies. The ones who know that energy is real.
That all beings speak -- The ones who talk to animals, rocks, trees -- And dream on, out into the wide open skies with wild imagination.

SENSITIVE SOULS It's TIME to Remember everything in your heart is TRUE. You are not broken, or weird, or too much. Or wrong.
You were never supposed to fit into this world, for you are here to CREATE the NEW ONE. SENSITIVE SOULS
Do you feel the stirring? Can you hear the music of the spheres?

It's TIME to follow the songs that only you can hear. Paint, Dance, Sing all the feelings. EXPRESS IT ALL OUT Flood this world with COLOR & LIGHT And FLY above the madness.

Showering Showing Up in all of your BRILLIANCE SENSITIVE SOULS Will you remember your mission The reason why you've come...

To Restore a World of DARKNESS and SHINE like the STARS that you know in your hearts that YOU TRULY ARE.

XOXO Natalie