Inspired By A SONG

I LOVE this SONG so MUCH - And recently It SAVED me -- and OPENED me -- I can't explain it - it was in the past few weeks where I just found it and put it on REPEAT and Cried and Cried and Cried.

As I was crying, I was organizing my past notes since 2017 — little things I had written to myself, and snippets of course and class ideas, long before the Artist returned. I was met with this overwhelming feeling and realization that I have been walking this path and building towards this moment.

Often times we can really lose ourselves in thinking that things are all in vain, and it is easy to lament and get distracted and get down on ourselves for not being somewhere we thought in our minds we should of been.

So within this moment of listening to this song and sobbing uncontrollably — the pieces were starting to form and something was releasing deep within me — I can’t explain how these moments happen, or how, or when, or who or why — But I am grateful that ART has the power to help us heal in all kinds of ways.

Music inspires my painting practice so much — of course, it helps me conjure memories and feeling states, as well as helps me move into different altered states of consciousness.

I have always tried to conjure and channel the feeling of Song and Music into a 2d surface, such as a painting. Music is very much Fluid and so is an abstract expressionist painting -- it has an energy and an emotionality -- I can interface with a painting and a surface and try to channel and transfer that into the expressions, I can bring all my emotion and channel that as an energy into the mark making material or brush and I can let go, wild, free, sometimes uncontrollably and sometimes gently — I can cry, laugh, scream, giggle, and let it all out onto the surface.

It is a lofty goal that I aspire to and maybe even a little crazy idea to make a painting sing like music, but I am a little bit crazy to connect in such a way where the desire and push and pull is always calling me forward. Of course that is not the only reason I paint or the only idea behind where I am trying to go with my expressions, but it is a pretty big one.

I love when you find a new song, in a hidden way and it opens you, and I feel like abstract art has the ability to create the same feeling and as an Artist that is what I am desiring to do — is to help you FEEL something, maybe you never FELT before, or you find yourself entering a hidden moment, and connecting deeply to the expression and the you the viewer has an experience that maybe can just for a little while take away your pain, help you remember who you are, and give you that giddy feeling of what it is to be in LOVE with LIFE.